i'm scared

because there is only one of you.

all of my friends

are leaving me.








i feel like a diffrent person.
... i am a different person.

it's a marathon and loves too late

i finally know now what i should have known then...



i've never been this broken in my entire life.
i have never felt as ruined as i do now.
i have never felt "dead".
i have never been this scattered.
i have never been this disappointed.
i have never been stabbed in the back like this before.
i have never loved someone so much it hurts.
i have never misunderstood someone so much.
i have never lost this much faith in someone in 24 hours.
i have never been this crushed.
i have never wanted to forget someone more in my entire life.
i wish i never met you.
and i wish i didnt love you, it makes things so much harder than they have to be.
apart of me wants to hate you.
never in my life have i ever felt so many mixed emotions, its frightning.
how do you feel knowing that you did all of this to me?


you were all i had, and you ruined me.



i am worth everything you never thought i was.

nothing in this world that is worth fighting for comes easy.
and all i know is even if i had something good i wouldnt know what to do with it.