i'm so tired right now that i feel delirious..

again.


will tomorrow be a good day?
cross your fingers!
cross your fingers!
cross your fingers!

!!!

be happy, be happy

i promise i won't stay bitter
i promise i promise

hmmm

why do i let flakes and liars pass so easily?
idk. it takes too much effort to find the truth.
takes too much effort to see the people that only care half as much for you as you do for them.
too much effort to put in effort?


passive

hands?

hands give, hands take.
what the mind 'single handedly' can't do, the hand will help.
soft palms show a life of love, rough ones show a life of hard work to support the ones you love.
hands are my only proof.

re-feel

i didn't sleep at all and spent all night youtubing (..story of my life.)
im pretty convinced that any video mashed with the song "my body is a cage" is a masterpiece.

i'm getting re-obsessed with the music/things i used to be all into. oh mannn, i hope i don't start living in circles!

extremely unproductive days make me rethink almost everything.
1)"how am i supposed to get anything done when i'm here..?!" I DONT KNOW HOW TO GET MYSELF OUT OF THIS RUT! It almost seems impossible.
2) i realized that i'm afraid of large, spacious places. how big? idk. but i don't like extra spaces. unless it's on a website...or ... you know. not afraid..i just don't know what to do to fill in that awkward place. i guess that applies to everything else that has to do with me..haha


ps,
it's funny how the smallest things can make such a huge difference.

dear insomnia,

leave me alone.

Things change.

Friends leave. Time stops for no one.

I just wanted to say

i really do love you.
if i didnt have you in my life right now i dont know what i would do.
i know we'll be more than okay.

shhhhpank for everything((:
especially loving me.

"i love you"

a phrase that could be copied, pasted

said with a bland expression

written with commas, periods

repeated, or re-phrased

with you, to you

could never lose it's meaning

to me.

what a miracle it is to be loved at all.

today i was cranky
and stressed
and tired
and headachy
and all my days are getting mixed up
and in the end i don't care for much




except for you.
a new chapter indeeeed.

All i want is for things to be okay.

Im not even asking to be happy.
Just okay..

Give me okay, please.

Closure?

noun, verb, -sured, -suring.
-noun

1. the act of closing; the state of being closed.

2. a bringing to an end; conclusion.

3. when something has been completed; when tension is released.


The service had a good turn out.
Im glad this weekends over because im more than ready to stop talking about it.

Hope you had a good weekend(: